This evening, I discovered something about myself that has been causing a rift between Mary and I. As most of you know already, her ability to communicate and use the computer has diminished drastically since her bout of seizures in March 2019.
Consequently, she doesn't play video games with me anymore because her ability to control the mouse and to type is mostly gone. This means she spends most of her time in the living room watching television (Netflix).
​I have been spending more and more time interacting with Twitch streamers recently, and I've found it difficult to stay interested in television. This means I spend most of my time in the office on my computer.
(Twitch is an online platform where people can broadcast in real time. Mostly, it is a platform for gamers, but there is a large community of artists and crafters, as well. The broadcasters are also able to interact with their viewers. The viewers are able to type in chat. There are even many channels that are devoted specifically to chatting.)
I've realized that, since we can no longer hold the deep conversations we used to have, I am feeling lonely. I've relied on Twitch for my daily interpersonal interaction.
I don't want to live separate lives. I love that woman to death, and we are fixing this.

We've recently gone on a couple vacations. These were (mostly) paid for early in the year. First, we dropped in to Dallas to see some very good friends that we hadn't seen in a while. They were visiting family there.
This last weekend, we got to help them celebrate their anniversary by staying with us in a vacation rental on the Oregon coast. Such a good time. I hadn't felt that good in a long time.
Because these were planned and were no-refunds, it was just more economical to go through with them.

What does the future hold for us? I cannot see very far into the future right now, but it will probably include a move. I don't have any idea when, but it has to come. I certainly have questions and concerns about a move.

• Friends - It takes me a while to form strong friendships, and I've formed a few here in Kansas City. I do not look forward to making those connections in a new place.
• Healthcare - Mary has a fantastic healthcare team here at the University of Kansas Health System. I hesitate to leave this team and seek out another rock star team.
• Cost of Living - The cost of living here in Kansas City is very low. I know making a move to almost anywhere is going to mean an increase. However, with us down to a one-income household, I don't know what that means for us.