Feelings... nothing more than feelings

I have both good and bad feelings for those that knew Mary before the tumor and those that know her now.

Before: I'm happy you knew her as her exuberant, energetic, outgoing self. I'm sad that you, like I, have to grieve the loss of that person.

After: I'm happy that you are interactive with her and love her just as she is. I'm sad that you didn't get to see her trudging through abandoned buildings and shoulder-high fields of grass to get the shot, hear her beautiful singing voice, or engage in her long deep conversations.